It's pretty simple, really.
When CRS strikes, you know it. You just Can't Remember Shit (CRS).
When I got to work this morning, I thought today was Thursday. No. Really. It wasn't until I opened a journal I open every morning to make an entry and the book told me it was Friday that I realized something was wrong.
At first I was mad because obviously I had dated the pages of the journal incorrectly ... of *course* I didn't believe the book. So I looked at the bottom right corner of my computer monitor on my desk ... it also said 'Friday, August 25th.'
"No way," I thought to myself. I might have even said that aloud.
I was squinting at the computer monitor (yeah, I should probably update my glasses prescription, too) trying to confirm the computer monitor's date/time reading when the lady on the morning TV news suddenly, and thankfully, said 'Happy Friday!' Holy crap ... I'd forgotten it was Friday?
So it's official. I probably don't have Alzheimer's, but I definitely have CRS.
The good news: CRS is normal and usually not something to worry about. Sometimes it's correctable and sometimes it even fixes itself. In my case, I've not been getting enough sleep. Like 4 or less hours a night this past week. So I'm going to go with that. But we all must at some point consider accepting the fact that, fortunately or unfortunately, as our families, friends and coworkers will often say, "we're getting old."
Yep. These "senior moments" are all a part of growing up. Just like puberty. Troubling as they may seem - and sometimes more troubling than at other times - they are just simple memory lapses due to any one of a number of things. In the case of those of us who still refuse to acknowledge that we are getting older and we're not Peter Pan, we can call it "absentmindedness." But, with that, we must also then understand and accept that we will find our moments of absentmindedness increase as we get older. Me? I'll probably accept that right about at that time when I have to say goodbye and join all those who have gone before me into the great unknown.
I know I will often rationalize, usually not seriously, that *I* am distracted by shiny things or pondering some other, more important thoughts usually involving quantum physics or some biomechanical engineering concept at any given time when I'm supposed to be paying attention to something else, and I miss things that are obvious to everyone else in the room.
One must be careful with that rationalization, however.
As is shown, for example, in the recent documentary about the late Glen Campbell's dealing with Alzheimer's disease entitled "I'll Be Me," he is often heard to explain away his troubling early signs of Alzheimer's with excuses like "Oh I don't worry about that stuff" or with other similar excuses justifying to himself and others why he could not remember things ,,, like the day of the week, the current month of the year, etc.
What pushed my button to think about this so much this week was that I was a little worried one morning in my office this week. A coworker, Kristin arrived and passed by another coworker, Mike, and me. Everyone (including me, apparently) said 'hello' or 'good morning' or whatever. A few minutes later, I asked Mike: "Is Kristin coming in today?"
"Dude," he answered, "she *just* walked right by you and you said 'Hello!'"
The look of amazement on his face that said "Are you serious? Do you really not remember her just passing in front of you and talking to her?!" (he might have even said that) was kinda ... worrisome.
Ya gotta hate it when that happens.
But, still, *weird* as this was, it was still attributable to just not paying full attention in the moment or having something else on my mind at the time of her arrival and it simply didn't fully register (or, in my case, at all!). In my case ... I was likely not fully awake yet. Like I said, I haven't been sleeping well ... or enough.
Fortunately I don't drive to work.
But, even with all this "don't worry" stuff, there can sometimes be cause for concern.
From the interwebs:
- 10 Early Signs of Alzheimer's
- When to worry about forgetfulness
The bottom line: forgetting stuff is normal and it increases in frequency as we get older but, if you are concerned: CONSULT YOUR DOCTOR.
Hello? Do you forget things, too? Trying using journals to remember stuff ...